15.5.18

starting again ... for real this time.


So much has happened since my ‘let’s start a fresh’ post ... turns out the new year had some more surprises in store for me. By the end of January my 12 year relationship with my partner came to an end. And with that I had to move over 100 miles back to my home town in the Midlands, all in the space of about a week. As if that wasn’t bad enough I had no financial security because my seemingly ever growing depression had taken all energy out of me to work on my business, and so it was failing. Winning at life, right?

If there's one thing I've learnt about myself from all of this it's that I have an unshakeable sense of humour. Which has probably saved me.

So where am I at now?
I think I’m in a better place ~ though that is questionable considering how much wine I drink and the fact I’ve had 5 new piercings in the space of a few weeks, but I guess that’s my way of *coping* for now.
As much as I don’t want this to be a blog about break ups, heartache and learning to be single  (I had previously posted some -now deleted- posts which were a bit too emo for the vibe I’m aiming for here) I just want to give you a pre-warning that those subjects might come up quite a bit. You’ll be pleased to know however that I've made the decision to stop moaning about it. Sure, it wasn’t my decision to end it, but it happened and now I have a little perspective on the matter I can see it was probably for the best. And quite frankly there is no point in me focusing on how miserable things are/have been. Who wants to listen to me moaning? Not me! I’m sure you don’t either. Ugh.

Anyway, I also made the decision to close my shop for a while, probably forever. Who knows! It feels like ‘Hello Harriet’ has come to a natural end. As I was trying to rebuild my empire (lol) it felt as if I was just clutching on to any shred of my old life that I could, and it was pretty depressing. I’d rather tie the last few years in a pretty bow and move on to something a bit different.
I’ve gone back to square one - I’ve got a ‘proper job' for a bit so that I can take some pressure off and allow myself to just enjoy deciding what I want to do next … and I guess this is what this blog is gonna be for too.

I’ll be trying to make sense of things, working out who I am, feeling all the feels and generally trying to make myself a better person with minimal effort.

So in the spirit of starting a fresh - Heyyy, nice to meet you!

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